Mirror On The Wall....

I find it strange when there comes a point in your life that you look into the mirror and seriously strongly dislike what you see.. For you see all the mistakes you said you'd never make. You have become the person you never were going to become. You've hurt people you never wanted to hurt. And when you look at the reflection you see something ugly, pitiful, hurt, and angry.
 How can one person do this to themselves? Or was there some sort of outer influence that helped create this monster?
 When I was young, monsters were scary things under the bed, or in the closet... Now it's something so much more real, I see it in the mirror.
 How do you defeat this monster? A part of me just wants to give into it.. It's too big to fight.
Then there's a small part of me that thinks I can actually win the fight..I've done it before. But that part of me is so miniscule, that the monsters is voice over powering it...
Only one thing I can do... Win!