The Unseen World

Not really sure how to write this but here we go...

 In the past few months I've come to realize the attacks of darkness, in my life, in the lives of my husband, and even in my children. I have this overwhelming feeling that God is calling on me for a specific reason. A reason that I'm to scared to face. A reason that is too big for me to handle. I know in my heart that "through Him I can do all things"(Philippians 4:13), but something is holding me back. Holding me back from fully learning and understanding what my purpose is here on earth. Holding me back from fully trusting my life, to the one who created me.
 I believe in the spiritual realm, where there are among us angels and demons. I believe in Heaven and Hell. I believe in God the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. I believe in satan. I believe that we are influenced by the spiritual realm in a way most people are unaware of. 
 I actually physically feel the energy of good and evil. It's mind boggling, when you think of it, the way that I do. When you can see it the way I see it. I feel it real, and true, in my entire being!
 It's funny actually. If you know me, you know that I can be uncertain with soo many things in my life. But this I Know! Without even the smallest doubt.
 If you close your eyes and place your hand about an inch from your face, you can feel the presence or energy of your hand. This is similar to what I feel when I feel the presence of good or evil. Though what I feel, is much, much stronger. But, the thing is that they don't feel the exact same. The presence of darkness is cold, my mussels grow tense, my tummy gets knots, and fear flows slowly through my whole body. My mind goes to dark places, one may think is made up, or not real. But it Is real. It's intense.
 The presence of good, is obviously beautiful. It's a remarkable feeling of peace, and rest. Of love and complete relaxation. An essence of absolute protection! 
 My goal is to become more in tune with what is unseen. To follow the Truth I have learned. To become who I am meant to be. I don't need to be understood, and accepted by this world. I need to follow the path that is set out for me.